New Beginnings Born Of Hope and Rehabilitation

When I was just about to turn 20, I was diagnosed with depression. I wasn't surprised. I had no idea what to do with my life. I thought my existence was a mistake. I believed that no matter what I tried I would fail.

The past five years have been a recovery from the darkness that is depression. I have been through some of the worst and hardest times of my life. I have also been through the best times of my life. I had no idea that I could be as happy as i have discovered I can be. I have become part of the world, with much help of a great cognitive therapist, an amazing support network, and finding a new way to follow my dreams.

This is where you find me:

I am 25 years old.

I'm finishing my Bachelor of Applied Business in Music Industry (A business degree).

Next year I want to become a summer intern for To Write Love On Her Arms located in the USA.

I have absolutely no savings, I do not know if I will be accepted into the program and I need to clear up my credit history due to flat mates who didn't pay their bills.

I have a dream that seems nearly unachievable for me at this point in my life. This is the first time I've decided on a goal for myself, that has an ultimate time limit. I'm going to have to do some kind of fundraising, a lot of working and be really strict on myself when it comes to spending.

I am absolutely scared out of my mind.

It doesn't seem like a big deal reading this over but for me, wow, I've decided I'm going to plan how to live my life.

When I was a teenager I used to tell people that I was going to kill myself when I turned 21. They thought I was kidding. I wasn't. I couldn't see any value in living past 21. In becoming an adult.

It wasn't until I was 22 when I proved myself wrong. I started my degree. It has been one of the most fulfilling and life affirming things I have ever undertaken in my life.

I started as an unhappy, self harming, isolated, hopeless, unmotivated person. I now have friends. I have learned how to do and be part of activities that I thought only rich kids and rock stars got to do. I have been taught by very inspirational teachers and I have learned how to exist like a human being with life left to live.

Following updates will include more about TWLOHA, the internship program, my life and anything else that I feel needs to be in here, as well as updates on my progress towards getting to America!

Cheers for reading,

Libs