Searching for something to look forward to...

So,

I haven't posted in nearly a month.

My excuse is I got really sick. I didn't feel I had anything interesting to write about and this leads me to this weeks post.

Post festival blues!

The entire month of February and beginning of March for me entirely revolved around Soundwave, I thought about little else and I never wanted it to end. Then I got really sick, which really meant waiting to return to the real world for a few more weeks.

Finally, last Friday came along and I was feeling 100% physically but suddenly had an emotional break down. Oh...this IS my real life.

I honestly don't know what I'm doing at the moment. I know that I need to take on more work, save money and pay my debts so I can look to the future some more. I need to study hard and catch up with my family and friends when I can.

I am having trouble feeling motivated though. I kind of feel like I'm trying to walk through really thick mud. Dry land is appearing a mirage, which means it's in the distance but a lot further than I can see.

I really need to find something to look forward to but I'm not really sure how to motivate myself.

Now to all those who know me, do not think I am down playing your awesome and wonderful support. I know that you are all here for me and would help in anyway you can. I just wish I knew what that was.

I guess this is a low point, which means I can only build from here.

Just gotta find my mojo somewhere...